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My another blog: http://www.xanga.com/herbalistaffair
Here's where when I don't want to be a burden to anyone.
(Especially at times like this when I can't fall asleep at 3am...)
"I want to be remembered as the girl
who could brighten up your day even
if she couldn't brighten up her own."
~*~
Never regret something,
That once made you smile.
Note: This lj is almost entirely locked.
(Comment to be added.)
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[31 Dec 2008|03:20am] |
What would you do if ...
1. I died :
2. I kissed you :
3. I lived next door to you :
4. I started smoking :
5. I stole something :
6. I was hospitalized :
7. I ran away from home :
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there ?
What do you think about my ...
9. Personality :
10. Eyes :
11. Hair :
12. Family :
Would you :
13. Be my friend ?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one ?
15. Hold my hand ?
16. Take a bullet for me ?
17. Keep in touch ?
18. Try and solve my problems ?
19. Love me ?
20. Date me ?
21. Sing with me ?
Have you ever :
22. Lied to make me feel better ?
23. Wanted to kiss me ?
24. Wanted to kill me ?
25. Broken my Heart ?
26. Kept something important from me ?
27. Thought I was unbearably annoying ?
More :
28. Who are you ?
29. Are we friends ?
30. When and how did we meet ?
31. Describe me in one word :
32. What was your first impression ?
33. Do you still think that way about me now ?
34. What reminds you of me ?
35. If you could give me anything what would it be ?
36. How well do you know me ?
37. When was the last time you saw me ?
38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't ?
39. What song do you think would describe me best ?
40. Will you put this quiz on your page to see what I say about you ?
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[25 Oct 2008|09:57pm] |
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Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously.
Oopps I just realised I've disable anonymous comments along for my livejournal -.-
Okay I've just enabled it after wondering why did my bestfriend post her secret with her livejournal account.. Hahah.  A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, what you think of me, your parents, boyfriend, anything. Just make it honest. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say.
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| Unfaithful |
[12 Jul 2008|11:27am] |
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It's the heart afraid of breaking,
That never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance.
It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give.
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live.
I've deleted all my friends-only posts.
Not sure what I wanna do with this LJ either.
See you soon in 7 days.
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| If you really want me, then give me sometime. |
[26 May 2008|11:57am] |
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"You know love is just a chemical reaction in the brain caused by surges of phenylethylamine, don't you?"
"I'm just saying no one loves anymore. People are attracted to one another and pair up to breed due to out natural mating instinct. But that attraction doesn't last. As with all drugs, the body develops a tolerance for the phenylethylamine, and eventually, the attraction you once felt for your partner fades. It's all perfectly natural. You can get the same amount of phenylethylamine, a stimlulant the mind craves, by ingesting vast amounts of chocolate as you can by, quote, falling in love, endquote."
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| Friendship is a real gift. |
[05 Apr 2008|11:05pm] |
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"Slowly, as the years go on,
you lose friends you never thought you would."
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Friends come and go.
I hate to say this... But...
Before you realise it, the person you used to hang out with everyday,
now simply walks pass you without even saying hi or a smile.
I'm certain everyone has experienced this scenario. Haven't you?
What happened to the good old times? Could it really be that everything's just forgotten in a flash? We can choose to remember, we can choose to forget. But often our lives are at such a quick pace that we can hardly salvage the already dead friendship.
Looking back, how many friends have you lost? With each friend, comes along with so many memories... I find it heart wrenching when I remember some whom I used to skip lessons with, study with, and do almost everything together with. However, as we walk pass each other now, our smiles are no longer as warm and sincere they should and used to be. Needless to say, some even treat us as non-existence. So what exactly happened? Well it could be because of a misunderstanding, or a quarrel. We let pride get into our way, and decide to leave the friendship untouched, which result in the friendship decaying... (Forget it if the friend was simply not worth keeping. I'm talking about friends whom were worth keeping here.)
Or it could also be simply because the fact that both lacked the effort to keep in touch. Too many times we go "I'm busy." Too many times we think it's okay because "There's always next time." But time waits for no one. Feelings die down over time and gradually you find yourself very much fascinated with the new interesting friends you've made and probably unknowingly neglected & left your old friends at the back of your mind and vice versa. The vicious cycle repeats every year and then to every single human being out there.
Perhaps I'm being absurd... But I really don't want this vicious cycle to repeat to me each year.
One of the biggest mistakes you can make
is to drift apart from someone
that you once had the time of your life with.
And so I try hard, really hard. I don't want to lose any of the friends I love. But schedules clash and impromptu stuffs happen, that makes it really hard to even meet up. I miss Liza & Jo so much. We used to be the best of friends- Our chemistry will never die... But honestly we all know that we've lost to time & drifted apart... Haven't we?
I guess I'm really naive. It takes real effort to keep a friendship going, but yes I refuse to let any friendships I treasure to leave me anymore. I don't want that to happen. I hate it when it happens. (I know not many will feel the same way as I do, but whatever, I just wanna voice my feelings out.)
But it takes more than one to make it happen, to keep it going. I've failed terribly in trying to keep a few of my friendships. But for right now, I really feel like giving up. But I know I just can't let go of my dearest friends that mean a whole lot to me. Breaking up with a boyfriend is much easier to break up with your bestfriend.
I've to admit, people are changing... Everybody's changing... Even I'm changing too.
It's hard to watch people change right in front of you.
But the worst part is remembering how they used to be.
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My dearest bestbestbestfriend, perhaps you've been busy and stuffs.
But I hate it on how we don't hang out anymore, I hate it on how we rarely even talk.
(We used to hang out almost everyday, and talk to each other like 24/7)
I hate it on how each time I call you enthusiastically, all I get is a monotonous monosyllabic reply.
(We used to burst into peals of laughter and hugs upon seeing each other in the past)
I hate it on how we seem so out of each other's lives...
I try to tell myself it's okay that you're really too busy...
But really, I know, that isn't the reason & all I know is I miss you.
If you hadn't realise, I'm telling you this because I'm so sick & tired
Of giving my all but getting nothing in return.
That I really feel like giving up, but I just can't.
Don't start telling me on how much you still love me.
Fuck words, I need actions.
(I still love you, a lot, more than anything.)
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But whatever it is...
We're friends, real friends.
& that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally decide to look back,
I'll be here.
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(Okay I think nobody will wish to be my friend/bestfriend already after seeing this.)
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| When we get to heaven |
[29 Mar 2008|09:06pm] |
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It's been a long, long journey...
All these memories, I'll never forget.
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